MY DEPRESSION POEMS

This category is about depression poems that i have written. They say everyone faces
depression once in a while but it's like mine's stuck with me. I am not always happy, am shy, always sad, and quiet and also always scared of saying something wrong. Always thinking about suicide. So these poems are what i wrote times am feeling this way to calm myself down.

i'd like to start the blog with a poem about why i write these rhymes. Like i said in the poem, i don't rhyme to pass time or just for rhyming sake, rather i rhyme either because am feeling sad or any of the emotions mentioned in the poem, and i need to keep my mind stable.

WHY I RHYME

Sometimes i may be feeling happy or sad,

or i maybe missing the love i once had.
Sometimes i'd wanna thank my Mum/Dad,
Apologize to the people that i've done bad,
write to a crush that secretly makes me glad,
write someone special a love or birthday card,
or calm down my nerves  when i'm mad.
These are the times i rhyme.
i don't wait for my leisure time,
or add it to my timetable.
rather i rhyme to keep my mind stable. 
(BY PARAMIND)

SUICIDE

Now i feel so empty and void on the inside,

That i just wanna disappear from earth.

I feel calm & peace when i think of death.

And right now i feel like committing suicide.

But No, instead i think of another solution.

I try party, drinks and i take a lot of trips,

I try education, meditation and religion,

I try friends, sex, sport and relationships,

But the relief only last for that moment,

B4 the void comes back again to torment.

Sadly you also can't talk to people about it,

Because they'll think you just being pathetic.

At the end, there's one solution untried,

And that's...that's fu©king Suicide.

(Written By Paramind)

Next is a poem I wrote when I was feeling very bad because I couldn’t get myself a girlfriend because of the way I am…Shy, quiet, lonely, and unconfident. Seeing my friends walking and talking with their girlfriends made the situation really worst. So I wrote the poem addressing my imaginary girlfriend

I CAN’T WAIT

I've been single since I understood that word

Searching for someone that fits into my world

I don't know why its difficult nd taking so long

even when am not interested in beauty or love

But simply someone that finds it very easy

to sit and watch everyone as they are busy

Chatting, laughing, playing, moving to and fro

Without being pressured to put up such a show.

Someone that doesn't find solitude awkward,

Who gets me, even without saying a word,

who is never tired of hearing me complain,

Someone I can predict over and over again.

Maybe there isn't such person out there for me

Nobody but me, maybe am just on my own

Maybe its fate and that's how its meant to be

Maybe it's not yet time for her to be known

But where ever you are, know i can't wait

To take you out on my first date

To have my first kiss and fornicate

To hold your hand in public without fear

To hug you from d back and smell ur hair

To have someone I can call mine

To have that feeling of being a man.
(Written By Paramind)